woainiTaeyaClaire

Taeya - this is one of the hardest parts of the wait...  so close,  so close that I am packing and repacking and unpacking and repacking.  I am not sleeping all through the nights or if I do I wake up SUPER early like 3am and I start thinking about you and I can't go back to sleep!!!!!!  I envision meeting you for the first time.  I envision you and I strolling about in Beijing together.  I can almost feel you reach for my hand as we would walk next to each other.
The two last things that I have to wait for are TOTALLY out of my hands and it kills me that I can't do ANYTHING to speed them up.  Just sitting on our hands waiting for China to give us our Article 5 and our Travel Approval.  Article 5 will be here Friday October 21st.  The Travel Approval I am positive thinking and PRAYING a WHOLE LOT that it gets here in two weeks after the 21st.  Which would put me to you by November 15th...  It's so hard to calm down once I get started daydreaming.  I can't focus on learning Chinese anymore.  Not until I can get the last two things down.  My mind is all over the place unable to light on anyone thing for very long.
I have started walking more.  I know that I am a far cry from being as in shape as I was when I was in China last time.  I know that I have to be up for LOTS and LOTS of walking for two weeks.  I got a back pack today for my only carry on.  In another week I'll start carrying that around with me when I go for my walks.  I am nervous about getting to China with just the one carry on...
I think about you all day, every day.  I hope that you are being well cared for and loved a lot today.  I hope that you know who we are by now but I know the chances are slim that you do.
Well it's a gorgeous day here and your big sister and I are going to go for another bike ride soon so I should get going.
Daydreaming of you
Mommy